A weak week…

Happy Saturday! It was absolutely beaaaautiful in my hometown today. I hit the lake path and had a lovely run under a brilliantly blue sky. I did not feel fast, I felt snail slow, but that was okay: It was a pretty meditative run. As most of them have become over the last few months. All sorts of stuff was going through my head. I’m not exactly bummed about my Progesterone level. I didn’t expect a nice high number. But still, I can’t help but be a little sad that the powerful 50mg dose didn’t do the trick. Isn’t it funny how you can prepare yourself for the bad news, but it still stings?

To recap: Based on what the nurse’s message said, my RE does think I ovulated, my period should come in seven to ten days, and they’re upping my Clomid for the next cycle.

I had a lot of follow up questions for her, but the nurse didn’t call me back on Friday. So I’ve been putting in some quality time toward my PhD in Google. It seems some labs call anything above 2.5 an ovulation, though this level suggests something called “weak ovulation.” (They want Clomid ladies to register a 15ish level 7DPO.)

With ovulation, I thought you either did or you didn’t. I didn’t know there are varying degrees. Apparently you can have enough LH circulating in your body to trigger the release an egg, but if the “surge” isn’t big enough, this can happen before the egg is mature. Seriously? I don’t know why eggs are released before they’re mature. I don’t get it. But, if this happened, it could explain why I never got a positive OPK, why I never “felt” ovulation, and why I had zero CM during this cycle. And so let’s say I did have a gentle ovulation. (I’m imaging my ovary is a sink faucet and instead of gushing water into the basin, it just lets a drip fall.) If the egg isn’t mature/big enough, it doesn’t make enough Progesterone to prepare the endometrium for an implanted egg. So even if conception occurs, the fertilized egg has no chance getting comfy in the womb.

Since my Progesterone level is so low, I’m worried I’m not going to get my period. I haven’t had a period on my own since the first semester of my senior year of college, so it’s hard to trust that it’s going to come this time. If I had a weak ovulation (again, WTF?) or didn’t ovulate (as some labs/REs would surely say), then can I really expect my body to menstruate? My hubs, who has a very science-y mind, thinks the answer is Yes. “It’s the same process as when you’ve taken Provera,” he reasons. “You have enough Progesterone in your system right now that when it dissipates, you’ll get your period.” Oh, how I hope he’s right! Bring on the cramps, bring on the bloating, bring it all…I want my period so I can continue on this journey!

I’m going to do my darndest to not freak out and patiently wait the seven to ten days (now six to nine, but who’s counting?!). I suppose I really shouldn’t stress out because even if my period is a no show then I can always go back on my old friend Provera. But, you know I don’t want to do that! I want my body to do this thing—finish a cycle!—on its own.

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  1. I hear you, friend!!

    I took Prometrium (same as Provera) last cycle and really don’t want to have to do it again. However, I’m on CD33 with no sign of ovulation or AF, so odds aren’t looking good.

    Fingers crossed for you!

  2. I hate when they give you no hope. Although, you did ovulate (yay!) you are saying I still don’t have a chance to conceive and this cycle is already a waste?
    AHHHH! Our bodies do not make sense. I am hear for you Egg!!!

  3. Zuly

    Hi, this is my first round of Clomid as well and I was in the same boat as you… didn’t get my period on my own for years. I did the provera for a couple of months and this month we started to the Clomid. I never got a positive OPK but on CD 14 I went to the doctor for a sonogram and they said that I had one mature follicle (We were sooooo HAPPY). I took the shot and I ovulated the next day that positive sign made my week =). I thought everything worked out perfect we had sex all the time..I got a lot of cramps which I was really happy about. The only thing that I didn’t like was that the nurse said that I couldn’t run or do any crazy workouts =( so I walked and walked for about an hour or so everyday dying to just run but I couldnt. So two week just walking. On friday I took a pregancy test and negative =( cried for a bit..I thought it was too early, but my friend google said that it would should by now. Tomorrow I have my appt and I will see if Im pregnant or not but I really think Im not. Is ok I just want to start the new cycle already…so will see. Im sure God will bless us with a cute baby soon =). I hope you get your period soon. Good luck!!

  4. Zuly

    Hi, just wrote you my story but it got erased somehow. Anyways my story is very similar to your no period of a looooooong time. Just started Clomid this month didnt get a positive OPK than went to the doctor on CD 14 did a sonogram and I had a mature follicle ( We were beyond Happy!!) went home took the shot and the next morning I had a huge positive sign!! We were soooo excited that we had sex like 3 time that day =) the next 3 days i had all positives. The nurse said that I couldn’t work out =( so all I did was walk and walk and walk i was dying to run but I couldn’t. Anyways I was so happy and I was sure that I was preggo since everything worked out perfect, so on friday I took a pregnancy test and it was negative =( I was really sad but got over it. Tomorrow I go to the doctor for a sonogram and blood work and I will know for you if Im not. I still have a little bit of hope but Mr. Google says that it should be positive 16 days after ovulation so will see. Good luck getting your period this week!!

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