I have stayed off the scale since I wrote this post. Mostly because I knew if I saw the number creeping up, I’d want to exercise more than I have been. And I’m trying to be very chill and kind to my body so it can do what it’s supposed to do: get pregnant and have a baby. (You hear that, BODY?!) But enough is enough, I can tell from the way my pants fit that I’ve put on some weight over the past few months. Lots of lazing around. Lots of Christmas cookie eating. Etc. So I stepped on the scale this morning…
The bad news: I weigh about 10 pounds more than I do at my marathon-ing/triathlon-ing weight. And about five pounds more than my maximum not-training-for-anything/winter weight.
The good news: Five pounds isn’t that bad. Right? I should be able to get rid of the pudge without amping up my workouts. Just nix desserts, snack less before dinner, eat smaller portions. (I looove to eat so of course this is a little easier said than done!)
I don’t mean to sound hyper-obsessed with my weight. I’m not. It’s just….I feel so blah emotionally these days with the way my cycles are not working out and then stopping altogether. And I also feel physically blah because my clothes aren’t fitting great and I’m not getting to clear my head with endophin-releasing runs. (The day after my period started last week and I was acting all distracted/distant/mopey, hubs said: “You need to go running.” He knows me, running is my mojo! I am running, just not much at all…I’ve been mostly riding my bike inside, super EZ.) Normally, if something in my life has me down, I find a race to run…and then I make a training plan and put all of my pent-up energy toward that endeavor and the bad karma melts away…and I feel accomplished and focused and happy. I like having a GOAL. I like to be doing something!
Unfortunately, I have no control over my ultimate goal of having a baby (no matter how intense my drive and how much energy I apply), so I need to find other ways to feel semi-normal! To shake the blahs! For my sanity’s sake! I’ll let you know when I figure out how to do that. 🙂