During this off month I’ve managed to check a couple of major things off my list: the HSG and the consult with Dr. C. I’ve continued charting. (FYI, FF has me at 9DPO thanks to that faux temp rise from the Provera. It is so annoying seeing that every day! I need to figure out how to override it.)
I also made some purchases on Amazon. I bought The Fertility Diet. We already cook 90% of our meals and eat pretty healthfully, but it’ll be fun to flip through it. I asked hubs if I was absolutely ridiculous for buying it. He said, no. Because he knows I feel so helpless in this process and it makes me feel better to take control of what I can. If it makes me feel better, there’s nothing ridiculous about it. (Good answer hubs!)
I also finaaaaaally bought Taking Charge of Your Fertility. I know, I know, I also can’t believe it took me this long to get around to purchasing every TTCers bible!
I popped my last Provera pill this morning, so now I wait for my period. I am hyper-, hyper-aware of my left ovary, where that cyst was. I’m turning into a bit of a head-case. For the last few days, a few times a day I think I might have felt a dull ache in that area (which is what the cyst felt like to me when they discovered it), and I am filled with dread that it’s still there and it’s going to force me to take even more time off. I even had a dream last night that the u/s tech found the cyst again on my next CD3. Even my dreams are not sacred from the worry!
I have watched people go through three cycles in the time it has taken me to have one. It’s been a little bit frustrating. I know it doesn’t matter what I want, but I would really like to have a second shot at getting pregnant! Time will tell, but I’m going to stay positive!! 🙂
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