Hello my lovely bloggie friends.
A quickie update: All is well in Clomid land. I do not have ANY side effects. (Not that I got any the first two times, either.) I have one more beautiful little 50mg pill to take and then it’s on to the nightly Estrogen suppositories. Have I mentioned how happy I am to be cycling? Oh my gosh, every day I thank the Lord I am getting another chance.
Still, the agony of IF that is worry and fear have not magically dissipated this month. A couple days ago I could be found Googling the heck out of Estrogen (basically, about 15 variations on the phrase “how much does lining thicken with Estrogen”). I also wore down my keyboard searching various doses of Estrogen. (Is my 1mg per day dose enough give HOW BADLY my lining has sucked in the past and how “super duper thin” it was on CD3?) I couldn’t find much of ANYTHING, and it was all starting to ruin the great mood I had going into this cycle, so I totally gave up searching.
I don’t know if my lining will actually thicken with Estrogen support. I don’t know if I’ll make a good follie on 50mg. Hubs does not know the answers either, no matter how many times I ask him. (A lot, as though he’s a Magic 8 Ball…but I digress. 🙂 ) I could ask Dr. C via email, but I know he put me on this protocol for a reason, given my unique medical history! Right? Right! I know no one can no for sure how it will all work out. Only time will tell. (I’m trying to be very Yoda Egg this month, FYI.)
Another update: I’m heading to California for a work trip this weekend and don’t get home til late Tuesday night. I will miss you all and will catch-up next week—I hope each and every one of you has awesomeness in your world until then. My next monitoring appointment is CD11—Wednesday morning. I’m super sad to be away from hubs for the second straight weekend, but I’m hoping the distraction will be good for me. Ciao!