So the first few days of the 2ww flew by. I mean, FLEW! I was starting to wonder what everyone makes such a big deal about. Until yesterday. (Muhahaha!) Then, I suddenly “got it.” Everything hit me: Doubt. Fear. Pessimism. Jealousy. Oh yes, I was a real joy to be around at work. 🙂
Here’s the thing. I know it’s EARLY but I have Noooooo symptoms. I mean, not even the faux ones everyone complains about with progesterone supps. Not that I want fakies, but sheesh, I think it’s a little odd that my bod isn’t even recognizing the progesterone supposedly coursing through its system. I’m not even getting weird discharge or anything! I swear you guys, I am the QUEEN of zero symptoms. I never get full or achey breasts, never have CM, never feel ovulation, and my medicine-induced periods have been so light this year that I rarely even feel any cramping. Symptom. Less!
What I do have: a “full”/”bloat-y”-feeling uterus. I’ve been bloated since IUI day, but the painful, stabby feelings in my ovary regions subsided by 1dpiui. Now, I’ve just got a constant heaviness/innocuous bloat. I’m very groggy in the morning, thanks to the fact that I’ve gone from roughly 5 mugs of coffee a day (I know! horrible TTCer! but can you blame me? I’ve never been in a 2ww so I’ve never HAD to nix it) to a few sips in the morning. Caffeine, you were a beautiful, beautiful thing!!!
By nighttime, I’m bouncing off the walls. I know I’m “allowed” to exercise during the 2ww, but my acupuncturist made it sound like running would totally disrupt any potential implantation. (I realize she’s not a doctor. And yes, yes, I realize a lot of people exercise through the 2ww.) I’m just being OCD, now that I’ve finally made it to this point. She recommended I wait until 7dpiui (tomorrow) to do a very light ellip session or swim. Honestly? I haven’t taken this much time off working out since, well, EVER! Even when I was running marathons, I would begin hitting the gym again for EZ workouts a couple days after. Without working out in the morning, or monitoring, or injections and supplements to take, my life feels a little too free and open right now! I’m getting to work early every day! I’m sleeping a ton! But I’m really looking forward to swimming or ellip-ing it tomorrow.
We are off to NYC on Friday. (I know! ANOTHER wedding!) There will be fun dinners and shopping and hanging with friends. (The jury is still out on whether I’ll be able to resist the siren song of jogging with my running buddy in Central Park…it’s in my top three fave things to do every time we go back to visit.) I’m not bringing my lappie and there’s no chance I’ll be on Google or searching old blog posts for magical insight into what a successful cycle feels like (yes, that’s me who’s been lurking in your archives). Which is a good thing. I’m very happy for the great distraction. 🙂