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On borrowed time?

I’m 33w3d today. And at my weekly Monday morning OB appointment, they discovered that I’m now 3cm dilated, with a super soft cervix, and still totally effaced. And with a crazy high blood pressure level (150/100) thrown in for good measure. With stats like that, I was sent directly to triage at L&D.

I really thought this was IT. I thought I’d be in labor right now. The wonderful, amazing, thank-you-lord news is that I’m not contracting, my cervix hasn’t changed since this morning, and the babies heart rates looked good. Oh, and my blood pressure totally chilled out at triage and the bloodwork and urine analysis for pre-eclampsia came back negative. PHEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

Of course, we so very badly want these sweet babies to stay put longer. Everyone—hubs, me and the doctors—are hoping and praying for 34 weeks (Friday). That seems soooooooooooooooooooooooo far away. Can I really hang on with a soft, “ripe,” 3cm dilated, 0cm length cervix for another four days?! According to the doctors, YES. I could go today, tomorrow or in a week. No one knows, so my job is to chillax and eat and hydrate and monitor myself for an uptick in contrax, water breaking, all of that stuff.

I feel like a bit of a ticking time bomb, on borrowed time. I don’t know how long my cervix can hang on, but gosh darnit, we aren’t giving up! Baby A, Baby B, cervie, ute, hubs and I are all going to give it our very best and try to eke out another day. Because everything was pretty chill during my day in triage, I was discharged and I’m back home on bedrest.

We love you so much, Baby A and Baby B. Whenever you need to come into the world, we are 100% okay with it and we will take care of you and give you the very best doctors and NICU possible.



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Multiples birthing class

We had part 1 of our multiples labor and delivery class last night. I have been totally, completely, weirdly excited for this class.

I felt so lucky to be in a class geared specifically toward multiples (there were even two triplet couples!). There were bellys of all sizes, women slumping in their chairs into more comfy positions, some ridiculously out-of-control belly rubbers (oh, my), the whole mix. When you’re having twins, you are at risk for a more complicated birth. For that reason, unmedicated births, water births—and all of those other beautiful birthing options I have seen so many bloggies write about—are not even on the table. It’s just too dangerous. As a twin Mom at my hospital, you get epidural-ed up (sans meds) as soon as you check in. This is in case—even if you’re planning a vag-birth—complications arise and an emergency c-section is necessary. I’ve never been to a singleton class, but I imagine there is a fair amount of time spent on unmedicated birthing and that sort of thing—we didn’t even go there.

I am perfectly okay with this. I mean, I am really really really hoping to be able to do a vaginal birth, but my #1 priority is that these babies are healthy. Not to suggest that’s not every woman’s priority, I just mean that I’m at peace with the lack of options.

We spent a lot of time talking about contractions, water breaking, and signs of pre-term labor. (So happy to learn all about this stuff!) I was really relieved to see that half of the women in the class, like me, did not know what contrax or BHs feel like. The nurse leading the lesson assured us that we’re allllll having them—at least every 30 to 90 minutes—but some women don’t have the physical symptoms that others have. (Isn’t it shocking I don’t have these symptoms!? Haha.) The other half of the women could very colorfully describe exactly what they feel whenever they have a contraction.

We spent some time discussing what happens in a vag-birth and even got to watch a couple of videos of actual twin births. (My sweet hubs did not have to leave the room like he did while I watched my National Geographic: Multiples In the Womb DVD a few months ago! I was very impressed.) All I have to say is…..whoooooa.

After the gory scenes, tears would well up in my eyes watching the babies make it out safe and sound. Obviously, I attended this class to prepare for birth and feel like this might actually be happening to us. On the other hand, I am still engulfed with this overwhelming feeling of REALLY?! Are we really going to be so lucky? Are we really going to meet these babies we love so much? Please lord, please let this work! Please let everything be okay!

Part 2 of the class is all about c-sections, taking care of infant twins and a (yip!) hospital tour.

I think a big thing for me all along has been finding a balance between the scary thinking and the positive thinking. Fact: Being pregnant with twins makes you high risk and sets you up for a plethora of complications. Fact: It’s important to know what those risks and complications and symptoms are so you can be prepared. Fact: Dwelling on these potential problems and reading about them online is horrible for my psyche. It takes me to dark and anxious places—it raises my delicate anxiety meter to an 11 on a scale of 1 to 10.

I try so hard to toe the line of “everything is going great!” and “everything can change at any moment!” Because they are both true. And I am so grateful to have this challenge. 30 weeks tomorrow.


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